from the other... nov.12, 2006...

HA i knew I had started one, it was just a matter of finding it.... when i transferred it tp the 'new' blogger that goes thru my google account, the older one showed up.... so i'll just transfer it here b/c i like my new one better.... this is from like November 12th...

first off, this was in my title description box. i like it. :
what would we do if everyone just got along? everything would be so dull. think about it...

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hmmm so maybe I'll start writing again in a blog? who knows.anyway, so today i was supposed to make cheesecake with marina, but it was so gloomy and just a very lazy day in general until maybe 6 or 7, so we didn't do anything. i really felt like doing nothing. just sitting there for the longest time today. i think it was a combination of dehydration and exhaustion that just did it for me. i figure this because i felt dizzy (i guess thats what it would be called?) when i stood up a lot today. not good. anyway, i'm still tired, but not so aweful anymore in general.i made honey orange chicken stir fry for dinner. it was pretty amazing.then i supervised viktorija and algiukas when they made cookies. they were pretty amusing... they actually spent all day together and got along super well. no fighting. super unusual, but definately a good thing. anyway, so i definately got my finger caught in the hand mixer and now it is bruised, swollen, and has a cut. and hurts, but not nearly as much as it did a few hours ago. thank goodness. my mom says it is just badly bruised. my sister says it is broken. who knows, but it is semi-numb.so, i'm going to go to TrendSetters college of cosmetology starting in January instead of Lewis. I think it'll be fun. then after that's done i think i'll take some random classes at jjc- perhaps for fashion merchandising, photography, and random baking classes too. those sound like fun. i am just not looking forward to seeing family over thanksgiving- they'll ask how school is and i'll have to tell them. i bet ya i'll be hearing oh, but you're so much smarter than that... sure that may be the case, i know, but i think i'd enjoy it. and to me, that's pretty important. as it is i don't ever want to work. ever. how aweful would it be to do something i don't like doing? i just hope they won't freak on me. otherwise i'd have just my immediate family and my cousins on my side. ahhh. i really don't want to tell teta jadze and ed. ed will have a freak out. but you know, i don't care. i don't like him. i can do whatever i want. yes. i can.hmmm.... school is rediculous. so much for all the supposed homework and crazy workload we were supposed to be getting once we get to the dreaded 'college'. i was expecting a lot of work. honestly, it is barely more and barely harder than high school. no joke. i get so much homework than marina and i have 'forgotten how to do homework'. yeah, you got that right.so even though i decided i have no interest in any of the 'traditional' majors and the need for lewis, i am super glad that i ended up going there for even just the one semester because i met two of the most amazing friends i could ever ask for. you have no idea how amazing it is to have friends like them finally. don't get me wrong, i have been so super lucky with my friends in the past (and well, theyre still amazing)!ummm, so work is stupid. i hate going, just because of the whole concept of having to go away from my friends and just sitting around to go to work. work is so dull. and i hate answering phones. so much. stupid manager dan has to like me better than his own kids, and i keep getting complimented- like one day someone asked dan if i was new because i'm apparently the most professional one in the office. geez. oh, and i hate skate guarding. so much. it hurts my knee and ankle. luckily i didnt go last week and not this weekend either. i'm going to have to go in next sat. might though. argh. it makes me sad that skating kills my knee and ankle so much. i love skating. so much.orchesis season at lincoln-way is starting up soon. viktorija said she heard announcements for try-outs. no wonder i have been in a dancing/ ballet mood now for a few weeks, its about that time of year. i really need to find myself a dance studio. i want to dance. i have to. i am so sick of just sitting around all day every day. i loved last monday when marina and i went to the hill/stage at night. i did leaps and ballet and just ran around on the grass. i needed that so bad. i wish i could do that every day. i wish it was warm enough to run in the grass with no shoes. its so cold outside and its just going to get worse. thank goodness its still fall. i love autumn time. its gorgeous and the air smells so crisp. its pretty amazing. winter is only amazing when it snows. its alright by me for it to be cold out as long as theres snow. theres no good excuse for the weather to be beyond cold if there is no snow to be seen.i want to learn to snowboard this winter. i will. it looks like fun. who knows, maybe i'll be good at it.i love my room. it is amazing.i need to get away. away from the area, the state, my family. i just have to. i just have no idea how to go about doing so. i have to start doing things on my own. i just feel like i dont know how. how to do anything.nilla just came to sit next to me. shes a pretty awesome cat and i usually do not like cats. shes like a dog in some ways. she follows me around when im home, but when im not home, she stays away from people and sits in my room. i want a dog. one that is smaller than cocoa, but bigger than nilla. so i could still hold it and carry it around, but not so small that id be stepping on it all the time.
i want to have a christmas party. and i will this year finally. christmas is amaizng.
im excited for florida in january, but am not letting myself get too excited until plans are finalized and we are actually going. i was supposed to go to california last summer, but that never happened. i was supposed to go this upcoming summer, but probably wont seeing as how i will have classes... argh
anyway, i should get to sleep. its 1:35 am. crazy.