a whole lot of thinking.

So, i was thinking the other day, about some stuff that i had previously said about oh i wish i was this n this n this, whatever, well.....
i decided, that i like who i am. i don't want to participate more in class- i like just listening and soaking it all in and just taking notes and watching it all, i like being as unpredictable as i am- it keeps things more interesting- for everyone- i suppose, i like being so energetic so often, i like randomly running around, dancing and jumping, i like having eveything planned out to the last detail- most of the time, i like being silly, i like sitting in corners- even if im not in a bad mood or tired (but often do because i am), i like to get excited over little things, i like enjoying the sun, rain, and snow- even if it means getting wet, i like only having a few friends, i like taking the occasional chance, i like spontinaity- (oh, heres one though-) i just wish there was more of that and i'd allow for it... i guess now that i think about it, i really am quite content. really.

so, i just have one change of plans potentially, i hope i like snowboarding- i'd love to be on the team at school next year, and then i could take dance classes for credit- since their dance department is so great they have all kinds of stuff- including the basic technique classes for tap, ballet, jazz, and modern. i'd love to do BALLET! and jazz. i love watching snowboarding. i just hope i like it. i just want something new.

and as for break, its been a week, feels like its been a month, and yet i'm not bored of it yet. i would be going ballistic though if i had gone away for school and gotten used to sharing a room and having people to hang out with pretty much around every imaginable corner, nearly just overflowing the buildings, and then gone to nobody around. i'd be going through such separation anxiety of sorts. i think. maybe. it would be strange for sure though. a tranquil, relaxing, nice strange though.

so, i just checked my online banking... my last pay check thing has been put in from the ice arena. i left on the 5th. simply because it took far too long to get there from home and i was sick of pretty much being alone at the front desk with nothing to do but homework the whole time. i dont like being alone when you know there are so many people around. its too bad though, the manager got so many compliments about me and i guess i was even mentioned as being one of the 2 best employees at the rink during the meeting the staff had, which i missed. the manager even said that he liked me better than his own kids. a bit weird, but cool i guess...? and he absolutely hates kids. and then he said that if i ever want to, just to give him a call for a job and he'll hire me back in a second. cool. thats really good. surprisingly, i dont miss going to work though... i liked it for the parts of the night when i did get to talk to people- especially the zamboni drivers. they were so amusing. one in particular- i dunno if its out of the ordinary for a guy to o this, but he noticed that my nailpolish changed colors (when i had the rainbow polish on) and made a polite comment about that, and he commented about my shoes one day- when i wore different ones than my usual. i just found that a bit out of the ordianry for a guy to do. so i thought i would miss the 3 zamboni guys that were there tues. nights, the random Brooks, and Kelly- he would randomly pop in to the office just to say hi to me. really i dont miss them at all. well, i guess jason and kelly, well brooks too.... i guess i do miss those guys a bit now that i think about it. ik. i guess i was just avoiding thinking about it. oh well. i guess.

well, i kind of want to watch some gilmore girls not sure if i will though, we shall see what i feel like doing in like 5 min. so, laterz
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