sunshine.

it's nice outside today. genuinely nice. sunny and decently warm. like springtime at home. except everything here has been green and blossoming for ages, is this place ever not green and full of flowers?

this past week was actually pretty good. not too many emo moments, really. except when i think about p. rasa. that's so so so sad. finding out about that was just such a wtf moment. at least she left such a positive impression on just about everyone that knew her. that's awesome. if only more people could do that.

i have concluded once again that contacts are amazing. such a thin piece of whatever it is makes my vision go from wtf is this i'm looking at to being able to see people's faces and read.

also, i'm in the mood to go to school again. i'm back to my plan of becoming a second-or-so grade teacher. my plan as of now is to be a receptionist at a salon, do hair on the side (illegally in this state... until we move back home so i can be legal), and go to community college out here, then transfer into a real school, perhaps back to lewis when we move back home. sure, it could take a bunch of years, but that's ok. i have time. and i like school.

thursday night andrei took me out to an amazing dinner. at yamashiro restaurant in hollywood. (yamashirorestaurant.com in case you're interested). they call their food 'cal-asian'. it was sooo yum. we got a seat by the window so we had a great view of city lights, hills, i got to see the moon :) for drinks andrei had a yum citrus mariti thing that he didn't finish, but i tried and it was yum and i had a 'cupid' aka. strawberry, rum, pineapple, and coconut all slushy and creamy like a daquri. appetizers were amazing crab cakes. for dinner andrei had ribs, cornbread, and mashed potatoes and i had chicken, brown rice, and long skinny green beans with teriaki sauce. we also had the waiter bring us wines to match our food. haha, our dinners sound so plain... they probably were the most boring on the menu, but it was sooo delicious. andrei was amazed at how the meat just slid off the bones. when one of the waiters noticed that andrei was keeping his rib bones on the side of his plate, he grabbed a plate from an empty table and gave it to him for the bones. the service was great. for dessert we shared an amazing little round cheesecake with fruits on top. soooo yum. as we were finishing up we overheard our waiter (who apparently matched his personality to the table he was at since for us he was really calm and professional and what not and to the other table was more interactive and lively) talking to a table a few down from us to a group of friends that were there talking to him about the minty or whatever dessert they ordered and how they should change the name to something less appealing and the waiter responded with ' i haven't let anyone order that in six months, i shouldn't have let you, i'll take it off your bill, don't worry about it'. that was cool. we spent about two hours in there just enjoying the atmosphere, the view, each other's company, and the awesome food. then after dinner, we took a walk through their little garden path next to the vallet drive up area. cute. i'd love to go there again. it was so yum and so so nice. and it was so cool that even being so dressed up we totally were not out of place. everyone was dressed up really nice. my long black halter dress with gold accents and gold strappy heels totally fit in the dining area. the indoor garden chill area? not so much. it was so strange. i walked through the indoor pond garden area to get to the restroom after dinner on the way out and it was like a totally different world. had i not walked through it i would have never known it existed. the music was different, louder, everyone in there was talking and it was just a total different place. so crazy. so separate yet so near to the more serene, dimly lit dining area. it was so nice. :)

saturday i sat on the rooftop by the barbeque areas and read for about three hours. that was nice. haven't done that in a long while.

my mom sent a picture of the crocuses blooming at home. spring. yay. i want crocuses. there aren't any where i am. it feels like it's been spring since we got here.... scratch that, since a week after we got here. the first week was hot. i want my seasons back.

i can't wait to get a job and start feeling better about being here. maybe i'll make some friends? that would be nice. i like getting out of this place. driving around randomly with andrei, going to eat, getting frozen yogurt, whatever. i just like getting out of this building complex. it's like a safe little castle. yep. i'm still rapunzel. but i'm not trapped. i have a car to use... just nowhere to go.

honey nut cheerios are good btw.

i made lemon cheesecake last night, today it will be ready to eat after having chilled overnight. yay.

i want to go out more. it's fun.

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